Healing is not linear. It’s messy.

Relapse is inevitable.

There will always be a back and forth.

Ask me, and I’ll tell you:

There’s no definitive timeline.

No neat pattern.

No final checklist.

But with every relapse, you’ll see just how far you’ve already come.

The road is long, winding, and rough.

And yes – sometimes, it will feel like you can’t keep going.

Pushing through may feel impossible.

But you can.

Because even in the darkest places, your healing is still happening.

Even if it doesn’t look the way you hoped it would.

You are worthy of what’s waiting on the other side.

It may still look messy – but the real mess, the heavy, hidden one?

You’ve already started to leave that behind.

All you need to do is keep welcoming the healing.

Open your arms to it.

Remind yourself of your strength.

Remember your worth.

You are so much more than what you were told you are.

You are so much more than everyone around you believes you to be.

Because no one sees the journey like you do.

No one can trace every scar, every small victory like you can.

Only you know what it took to get this far.

The voices may be loud –

The ones inside your head, and especially the ones without.

But you know the truth,

Let that drive you.

Don’t get me wrong – I’m not healed.

I don’t even know if I’ll see the end of this road.

But I do know this: I’ll get there.

It will cost me more than I ever imagined.

But it will be worth every part of me I lose –

because of the parts I will gain.

Love always,