I’ve had a weird couple of weeks, which doesn’t get old because most of my weeks are weird.

There’s a lot going on upstairs – in the mushy room.

Two weeks ago, I’d mentioned understanding & acknowledging my weaknesses in order to be able to love myself completely. Today, I’ve been thinking about them a lot and I want to talk about that, my weaknesses that is.

I know that it’s not widely accepted to show or use your weaknesses. Rather, there are those that choose to hide them instead from everyone around them and within. They choose to focus on their strengths – which isn’t all bad, if you are you and not me, I guess.

Personally, I like to know when something isn’t working and why. So, knowing what I’m not good at will help me to know what to focus on and in some ways also use that to my advantage, kind of like working around it or maybe even alongside it.

I’m going to try to break it down so I can stop confusing myself.

For instance, I function with my emotions. If I’m having a slow day emotionally, just feeling the day, something like today, I do things slow. I cook at ease, I read a little, I write, I take a nap maybe (if I can). Anything fast-paced would confuse me. It would be a struggle to catch up.

If I’m having an emotionally confusing day, I make lists! Lots of lists! And I work through those, or I’d just end up staring into space most of the day and nothing will get done.

When I’ve been emotionally hurt, it’s just a no function day for me. Period. Everything that happens, every word that’s said, every action will turn around to salt the open wound. I crave lots and lots of love and acknowledgment and reassurance on these days to be able to walk through that tunnel to the other side.

I see this – functioning through emotions – as a weakness. Because it completely decides how my day is going to be and what I’ll accomplish and what I won’t.

But then on the other side, I can work it to my advantage too. And especially knowing this about myself, helps a ton!

On the days when I’m emotionally overwhelmed with unreasonable joy, my children and I have dance parties, we play tag, we bake together, we read together, we sing songs together, and we have the most fun-filled amazing days. And then there are those days, when I choose to read a book instead and let them watch their favourite shows on tv just to have some quiet no-mom time.

And both seem to work. They love them, and so do I. It’s honestly a win-win.

Are your chains weighing you down or helping you build strength?

Or is this just me, doing the overthinking thing I always seem to be doing?

Let me know in the comments below.