I needed a win!

By mid-day yesterday, my eyeliner was only visible over the lid of one eye. And the other resembled a panda’s.

My day started at 5:30 am. No one needed to be up that early in my home so I was sure I was going to completely lose it some time during the day, maybe even a few some times.

The universe had other ideas. Maybe she saw I needed it. Maybe I was just so desperate for it!

My kitchen was absolute chaos! There was food, and signs of some kind of struggle visible all over my counter and stove. My sambar exploded through the pressure cooker during my cooking process to add to that mess.

I needed a win!

My dining table had barely enough space for one person to sit down for a meal. Barely! And it was meant to hold lunch (banana) leaves for four of us shortly. I didn’t know how I was meant to pull that off!

My living room had cushions & toys scattered everywhere! The couches were free though, which was something.

I really needed something more to work in my favour!

My “pookalam” was a mess. I consider myself pretty creative most times but Onam is just not one of those times. Guiding a 7 year old and 3 year old through the process as well while barely knowing where I was headed myself was just impossible all the way till the end! The end result – disappointing, as usual!

I so needed a win!

And then calls from loved ones that I couldn’t avoid, a way to distract myself from the chaos that was my home, a home that had clear, very evident signs of being extremely well loved.

I needed something, even a semi win!

And thank you universe, mid call with my mom, the two younger ones fell asleep. They just dropped off to sleep mid-conversation, mid-call with their grandma. I could enjoy my bare minimum, extremely humble Onam sadhya, by my lonesome, standing up at the kitchen counter (after pushing aside some dishes). I was too overthrown by this turn of events that I didn’t want to jinx it by sitting down for a meal.

And then when they did awake, all of them enjoyed the sadhya too!! They asked for seconds! Not something I would have believed had I not witnessed it myself!